the floodgate of feelings:)

The pain is digging in her soul her insides are searing as she watches it all drift away she cant help screaming... but either her screams go unheard or you have stopped believing maybe something went misunderstood or maybe, the scars hold too much meaning... now it feels like she's holding on to whats no longer breathing what used to make her strong has left her bleeding... all the lies are easier to face its just the truth, which isn't leaving but as her hope sinks lower, that faith, is still not depleting because, when she thinks over and over, if the pain is worth the dealing? she always finds an answer by her floodgate of feelings....:)

It was September 22, 2010 Yet she still remembers...those frantic cries...those pleading prayers, those sleepless nights,those desperate apologies, and that sullen goodbye... it happened more then a year back, but its still fresh, those never-ending tears, those regrets, the excruciating pain of parting, and the want to know more...to know what had really happened. She still recalls those harsh words, those cold expressions and the frozen clock which took hours to tick away each second...! She even remembered the nervous breakdowns, the comas, the constant trips to doctors trying to figure out what was wrong, when all along she knew her best cure. But in spite of all the worries, the depression, the pain, the trauma... something still stopped her from walking away...something still stopped her from letting it all go. It was faith itself,  faith in all those words he said, in all those memories they made, those times spent together those laughs t...

she journeyed within the circles of the violent storm which, keeps hitting her, over and over,  and over and over again;  but she doesn't stop,  she doesn't give in;  she still stays strong,  and doesn't move. she takes one resolute step after another though left in broken pieces she, doesn't even try, to collect herself together the anger throbs in her head,  the frustration seeps in,   the obsession unravels yet she remains hidden but as her feelings  find their way she  ardently starts to pray because,  she doesn't want her eyes  to  give her secrets away...

i will drift away as i hear you sing, and your beautiful voice in my eyes will bring, tears surging out,  like summer spring; so i will close my eyes,  let it flow as my dreams will slowly,  grow two wings and even if, you let me go you will still be my prince but hand in hand, we will walk the path as your mellow murmurs, soothe my heart,  we will cross each journey with that silent vow to never loose hope to never part  <3

<3 ...every once in a life, we get that one person, who reflects back on our every action, reaction and words. i found that person three years back. you came to me in form of a best friend, an angel sent down from heaven,  someone sent to guide me right, to be there for me each night, to care for me, and to act  not like a shadow, but merrily, a mirror I was the barren land and you were its first dandelion when I went silent,   you became my words, when I closed my eyes, you opened yours wide, when I felt myself slipping away,   you held on tight and when I fell in the darkness of despair,   you were the only light I still remember,   the way my hope had once shattered and the way you collected it and saved it from going to tatters the way you willingly offered your luck when I lost mine and the way you gave your heart even when I broke yours outright but my angel always remember that no matter what i do, or say i st...

Isn't it amazing, how that one person can mean so much, the way the same person, who makes you cry the most, could make you laugh the hardest too...! Isnt it weird, how we can smile so much, when the others are so sad ever wondered how when one person dies, another arrives ever realized the way there is a day and a night the way there's heaven and hell ! the way things end, but always with a beginning... the way there is life and death ..devils and angels  ...tears and smiles... ever considered how the summer is always replaced by the winter, and the sun always by the moon! how some people have a thousand enemies, but then have that one friend, who  is worth those thousands. we are living at a delicate balance, its not always about reaching the sky, but sometimes, we gotta look down, and realize that, we can get tired of flying one day... life is like a seesaw, you got to bala...

Liberating his grip, he watches it fall away; watches the petite granules of time flow away with the wind, sees them getting caught here and there, everywhere but him. He is loosing her, feels her crumbling away...and the harder he holds on, the more it flakes off! Blinded by fate’s sharp turns, he was left alone, with nothing to think, nothing to loose, nothing to feel, but her unattainable presence. he walked along the path clueless, not knowing where to go, not knowing what to do, what to look ahead to and what to wish! It’s a trail leading him through the graveyard of his memories, and he walks wordlessly. no one knows the storm inside no one knows the battles he fight no one knows its he, who was left behind It had all come back, what he forever wanted had returned to him, what he wanted to hear was finally heard by him, what he wanted to see was finally seen by him, but he lied there feeling less! Not knowing how to answer...! he is so used...