Saturday, 27 August 2011

Reflection...






looked in the reflection...
saw u in pain..
saw an emblem.. of the past
which is just so hard to explain..

i break the mirror..
and i am blinded by tears..
waves of guilt cross over
my tormented soul,
the endless queries..
shower in my wits..

can i not assist?
am i a hinderance?
is this de ja vu?
or is it poles apart?

i wish ur sores to be over..
i wish you to just trust me..
because i know..

the map of your present path..
its the map..which has been engraved in my mind
because once..
i was walking
down the same conduit,
and once the same stones hit me..
and because once..i fell down right where you are standing
and that one day..you had come along to rescue me..

now its my turn..
ill pick you up..
on the same track..
where i once..,
broke down..!! 

p.s: something once written by me, it was written before i realized...that i did help, not by doing something for you. but just by always being there...:)

my most priced possession :)

Those years spent with you,  Evoke different moments, different thoughts, different memories, different feelings...!


I still remember how our conversation started just over a dim-witted literature book...and it ended in to something so much more.
I recall those times when you teasingly used to pull my cheeks, my hair...and sometimes even my nose!:)
The way we spent late evenings together after school...just laughing our time away...
The way we took the longest course to get to the bus, just to spend more moments together...:)
the way we missed each other, and the way we found a home in each's presence.

our tears have always been allied because each of our life is so tangled up into each other, that its difficult to figure out which problem is really whose! :)
I still find it cute the way we call each other with a multiplicity of nicknames, the way we take random pictures, the way we are so selfish about each other,

The way we pass incessant promises of being always together, and the way you make me smile through my tears.
The way we blindly trust each other…and the way we devotedly talk to each other about everything.
i idolize the way we two are the strongest people outside, but when together, we are at our weakest...!

You are my greatest companion, my paramount caretaker, my most valued possession, my unsurpassed friend.
You are a father I always wanted, a mother I forever yearned, a brother i never had, a sister with whom I always share, a dog I always wanted to keep, and the friend of my wildest dreams...:)

and when i summon up all the time i have spent with you...
i realize that somewhere between those protracted talks, lasting smiles, faithful promises ,reciprocated tears, "i love you more" fights, bottles of pepsi and extra cheesy pizzas. I didn’t fall in love with you...i fell in love with the friendship you give me:)
           " i don't want to make you smile like a lover, i want to make you laugh like a friend, because relations don't last, but...friendship never ends:) "

Thursday, 25 August 2011

Blessings in disguise...:]

as i step out of my house...my feet land into a puddle...! but instead of frowning i smile...as i engulf deeper into the most beautifulest aroma ever...
...its the smell which drifts even the stubbornest of soul away...a smell which softens even the numbest of hearts....a smell which spreads smiles on even the hungriest slum kids...its a smell which is cherished by every love couple...a smell which is most treasured when walking with friends...
trust me...because what i smell right now,is the most beautiful of smells...its the smell, which is the rainy season kinda smell...:]


finally rain is here...<3 bringing along its usual scent...its usual touch...its usual sound!

i still remember that little poem they taught us when we were young...
  "the rain is like a little mouse, quite small and grey, it patters all around the ground, and then it goes away" :)

this juvenille peace of poetry teaches us everything we need to know about rain...

it tells us of its melody...which gives every life a background music to enjoy...which makes every lonely person feel less lonely...and every happy person feel...more happy!

 it tells us of its touch...the way it tends to fall in small fat droplets one after the other...the way it wakes every sleeping person and the way it blooms every bud...:)

it tells us how sad and grey it really is...but its just our smiles...who give life and joy to it:)
 so to all the people standing in the rain with umbrellas, THROW THEM AWAY...and only THEN you can have a HAPPY RAINY SEASON:)



so DO have a happy rainy season...:D

Wednesday, 24 August 2011

...board result in my hand:D

...oh my God..the hype, the energy <negative or positive i cant define>, the thrill, the excitement, the constant buzz, the goosebumps....!
when we heard that the RESULT was DUE TOMORROW! Aaaaaaaaaaaagrrrrrrrrhhhhh!


those texts a night before which are begging you to pray for them, those phone calls saying "i wont go home if my result is bad", those meditation therapies, those constant promises to LOrd for praying "shukranas" if you get all As, those restless sleeps, those consoling words saying "i will pray for you" and "tension not you will pass"...!

and then finally the day comes...when we are crossing those green threshold of the school, and i see everyone rubbing there arms to appease those frissons! i am greeted by my group of friend....and...

OH what the HELL....i am getting impatient...SO LEMME JUST GET TO THE DARN POINT!:D
i walk in the outer office to receive my result sheet and....
...i fall into the arms of my friend sobbing....shaking...trembling from head to foot....shivering...nearly fainting...it couldn't be true...it was JUST TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE...!

I GOT 2 A * and an A!:DDDDDDDDDD
good GOD!
the shock is still just OUT OF THIS WORLD!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD <3
i mean MEEEE? no really i raise the question again....ME????:O :DDDDDDDD
i love you GOD!:DDDDddd
yaay mee < applause> <hoots> <screams><and faints> yet again!:DD :DDDDD

Tuesday, 23 August 2011

with what i still remember...

...what i still remember...was the day i woke up trembling in my sleep...tears pouring out of my eyes...and i remember everything, everything that felt so cold...but suddenly i had felt...my mothers hand come up on my back...patting me gently...leaving gentle trails of her sweet sleep, for me to swallow...! you know what that taught me...it taught me to sacrifice...!:]

...what i still remember...is the story behind those pen marks on my door...they each have been marked a bit above the other...to measure each mm i had grown every year...! my grand daddy used to tell me...to aim to be as tall as the door...but somehow...inspite of the years that have gone by...i am still 2 feet shorter then it...but you know what that taught me?...it taught me to ALWAYs aim high...and never to loose hope because even if i don't reach the moon..i will still get to land among the stars...:]

...what i still remember...was the day i thought my friends would not turn up for my birthday party...i still recall those effortless tears that had trickled down my cheek...and when suddenly they turned up at the foot of my bed...singing happy birthday <out of tune> at the top of there lungs...i had suddenly smiled through my tears...! and you know what that taught me...it taught me to value:]

...what i still remember..was the day i thought i had lost you at the bus station, i still recall the way my big sisters hand had left my tiny four year old fingers in the crowd...i still remember the relief when just after a minute or so i found you...but you know what those 60 seconds taught me...they taught me how to miss somebody:]

...what i still remember, was the day my high school enemy, had awkwardly thrown her arms around me, crying...she was asking for a new start...and inspite of the fact she had completely annihilated my entire life...i felt sorry for her...and you know what that taught me...it taught me to forgive:]

what i still remember was the day i saw my chum crying...i summon up that it was the day when  i was also plaintive over something...but seeing his precious tears wasting away...my lamentations had taken a turn...and now the tears which poured out of my eyes were for the drops that were pouring out of my best friends eyes...:)...and you know what that day taught me...it taught me how to care:]

...what i still remember...was the day someone i loved...asked me to promise upon something...i still bear in mind that conversation...he had said he felt insecure,as if we were drifting away...he had asked me to swear never to leave him...and i did...i had solemnly pledged that i never would...and its been three years...i am still with him...and you know what that taught me...it taught me how to keep promises:]

...and after all that...
what i still remember...is how to LOVE...because every love requires the above...:) 

Sunday, 21 August 2011

...One in a million...!





That solitary survivor


On the path of valediction
Trying to let go…
Of that one addiction
His silent lamentations
Weep out…
Was this predestination?

His anger does not fade
It’s cemented with hate
Fury, has become a part of his loathed fate
Wrath, now an unchangeable trait
His desire to push it away
Has long gone away
And with each passing day
It kills him inside without delay…


She is watching his existence stultify
And as her days go whizzing by
She wears smile as her disguise
She can’t see him cry…she can’t say goodbye
So she starts to try…
She tells him to look aside
Away from the pain…that still resides
Directs him to stop wishing back time
Because someplace, somewhere
One has to draw a line…
Keeping in mind…
That people may leave us behind…
But we need to move on since
This is life…
One in a million…one of a kind! 
                                                
a little something written by me for someone...!...
every once in a while you fall in utter despair...and you get so blinded by the hopelessness which surrounds you that you are unable to see a guiding hand which is always behind you...you forget that there's always a light, always an angel, always a friend who is there to help you out...no matter how vicious the circle you are stuck into is...no matter how desolate you "feel"...you should always remember that...
  in your loneliness you are not lonely:)